i would probably start by writing down what i do and dont believe....
study different forms of spirituality and when one strikes true - you are home.
of course it may be that parts of many things reach out to you
we al walk our own paths - i hope you find yours
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet