((foodlovesme)) - I'm sorry you're so troubled. Have you talked to your doctor about your weight. Have a complete physical done with blood tests to rule out any physical problems which could be contributing to extra weight. Some phych meds also cause extra weight.

If your doctor thinks you do need to lose some pounds -join a reputable program. You can learn how to eat healthy and you can actually eat more when you eat this way. Are you able to exercise? With help you can learn to manage this and have a healthy relationship with food.