((((((((jexa)))))))))

i think that maybe im punishing myself for allowing it. and the punishment is never enough for what i did. so i keep increasing it. ive been doing it since near the time it started.

no, my t doesnt know about anything yet. except the school kids info i emailed. we havent talked about it yet tho. as i havent had another appointment yet. but go on friday. she does know that i have csa history. its just hard to tell this kind of stuff. i dont talk much at all in t.