Thanks Mary Alice,
I have been in a weird space of late. Last couple of days I have been dissociating all over the place. It is scary. When I took my son to school yesterday, he was out of the car and half way up the sidewalk to the door before I was even aware that I had pulled up to the curb. I surrendered the keys to my hubby right after I got home. It makes me wonder how many other people are driving around who are totally whacked out.

Feeling this way isn't all that unpleasant, just perplexing. It worries me because I am not at all sure how far down into the hole I really am. I think that is why Dreamer has touched me so deeply. I hope she is ok. I want to say that everything will be ok, that with time it all gets better and that with hard work and dedication we live happily ever after but I am lost and I can't seem to locate myself. I do however have faith that I will find myself eventually and will regain the peace I had not too long ago. Perhaps that is what I need to say. Life is full of pitfalls. Sometimes we don't even realize we have fallen into them at first but every time we manage to climb out of the hole it makes us stronger and more capable of climbing out of the next one. The almost two years of not cutting was an experience that made her stronger and more able to climb out of this particular pit she has fallen into should she decide too attempt the climb.
Carrie

<font color=blue>The soul should always stand ajar ready to welcome the ecstatic experience.--Emily Dickinson