oh, Jexa.

This hits so close to home for me right now, and so I don't have any real answers for you.

I ache for my old T.

In my case, at least, I do get to talk with old T every so often on the phone, and just yesterday I was able to tell her how much I miss her, and that helped.

I complained to her about new T being so different, and I'm not sure if we'll click, and old T told me to hang in there...she said she's seen many therapists throughout her life and the best ones weren't at all what she expected or what she even thought she wanted initially....but in the end they were exactly what she needed.

I can so relate to looking for a mother. It seems like that longing/search will never cease.