Sweet ((((((((((Jexa)))))))))))))

Having needs is not "being needy". It's okay to need help, no matter what. You are so generous with support and wisdom here. And even if you weren't it would be okay to need something.

I can't imagine how painful it is to miss your T so much I *think* I can imagine it, because when I imagine my life without T, it takes my breath away...but I haven't been there, yet.

I'm so so so so sorry you are in so much pain. Sometimes my T says he wishes he could just magically take my pain away. I wish I could magically take your pain away. Sometimes the things we have to walk through just plain suck. That's all there is to it.

Keep moving forward. Let yourself grieve. Reach out. Keep your eyes open for moments of grace - even in the dark, sometimes we're surprised by a firefly.