I put a trigger cause I don't know if I'm being too graphic for this section. Perhaps the whole thread should be moved?

Okay, so I should probably preface this response with a little information of my own... I'm 23, been with my boyfriend since I was 18 as well, and he's the only boy I've ever had sex with. Oh yeah, and a biggie, I've never once had an orgasm. From what I've found is that most girls don't have orgasms from sex alone, most of us need some other stimulation. Also, I've heard (and I'm not sure this is true, I've heard this from people, not doctors), that some girls aren't at a point in their life where they can have orgasms until they get a little older (again, I have no idea if this is true, but I wouldn't be surprised because I know I'm not the only one who hasn't orgasmed). When I mentioned this to my doctor, she said we just had to keep exploring each other (personally, I think that's bull, and that I"m either hung up mentally or screwed over from the prozac/all the other drugs I used to be on...) I've also heard if you think about it too much, you're not letting yourself relax and enjoy the moment, and then it won't happen.

So, here's what I would recommend. (Again, keep in mind, still haven't reached the big O over here), but relax. Try to not think about things you're not liking about whats happening and what you do like. Maybe read some books yourself, I've heard of a lot of good ones out there, there must be something helpful in some of those pages. Also, don't put all the pressure on him in the bedroom to please you. Sometimes, you gotta please yourself, and I'm sure he wouldn't mind watching that or helping out. Lastly, and it's kind of back to the same point, is maybe right now isn't the best time to be worrying about sex. He recently had a stroke, is still recovering, and might still have some emotional/mental hang ups, and maybe right now he still needs your understanding and love. Don't get me wrong, I know you need love and affection and all of that too, but I'm just worried, that if you're in this for the long haul, that right now might not be the best time to talk about this. Try to make things more enjoyable without burdening him. Gently ask him to do something differently while you're in the moment, like "Hunny, I really like it when you..." I also wouldn't recommend faking it anymore. I feel like that's self defeating because neither of you will ever learn what you really like if you keep cutting it short.

Good luck!!!