My dad knows, he's always knew... Hell, I stayed clean for 10 months and the mother f*cker still accused me everyday of using. To him, I've always been a junkie and I'll always be a junkie. I've come to terms with that, so it's ok. As far as my mom is concerned, I think she knows but I think she's in denial of it so she won't admit to herself that her baby girl has relapsed and is using again. She's got enough on her right now, my sister having HIV due to sharing rigs (needles) with her druggie friends is really messing with my moms head. It's brought back a lot of memories for her dealing with my brothers death and she's trying to prepare for Stephanies death even though it could be a long time before she goes. I do not want to add to that stress. My moms a good woman, she doesn't deserve to be put through this time and time again. Don't know what to do at this point. URG! So frustrated.