My T is having a family emergency right now, and has had to cancel session. I (the adult me anyway) totally gets that and I have tried to be as gracious as possible about it. I mean, it's not like it is her fault and I know she is under a lot of stress as caregiver, etc. The little girl me, however, still needs T. It's not like I can just turn off this crap in my life that I'm dealing with 24/7, you know? I see the pattern. I'm pushing down the hurt I have and the need I have from wanting and needing T for HER needs right now, but what choice do I have? I feel like I can't let her know how much I am hurting, because I know she is under a lot of stress. I feel like I need to protect her from me - I guess that is how I feel anyway. I just don't know what to do and I'm spinning out a little - a lot. My T, who is like this solid base, who is always there, who is the strong one - I all of a sudden feel like I need to protect and take care of HER, but I still need her to protect me and be there for me. I feel so selfish. I don't know what to do. I really, really, really, don't know what to do.