Well hello everyone, My name is Ashley, and i'm just curious to know if I have bipolar disorder. I read some of the information and it seems like it, but i'm just not sure, I have BDD dealing with my body figure. I currently weigh 95 pounds and i am 5 ft 1 inches tall. I sometimes feel so depressed and feel like i cant take life very much, but others (not as much as being depressed) I feel like i'm happy. I seem to have anxiety all the time at like a 4 out of 10 on a scale of 1 to 10, And I really just wanna know if I have it so here are some of my symptoms:

Feels fat most of the time feels thin other times.

I feel depressed a lot and like my family doesn't understand.

Sometimes i feel like everything is alright and im completely happy.

I get severe anger sometimes towards my family and friends over nothing, it feels like i want to kill them ( not literally) but yeah..

I never taken prescription drugs before in my life, sometimes i really want them but i feel like they will make me act differently from who i really am..

I have an iq of 127 but i feel so stupid all of the time, i write and draw a lot and people say they are amazing and i'll think so as well, but then other times i hate my work, but then a few hours/days/weeks after i throw it away ill miss it..

I've thought about telling my family so many times since i was 13 but now i'm 18 and not a word has came out of my mouth.

So please give me some helpful tips..