No sexual feelings either way, me towards her or her towards me. I have been on both sides of that one and red flags go up quick! But that I could at least understand her being uncomfortable with. Also, She works with all her clients with their clothes on.

The "respond rather than just listen" may be part of it... although I honestly would have been content if she just stood there and pretended to listen!

I also know that some times my gratitude seems "out of proportion" to people. But when you grew up in a world as painful and "void" as I did it is hard not to appreciate what people offer me even if it is just "normal" for them.

It happens to me a lot actually. I can process the worst of my emotions and abuse history with anyone and never had a problem... But god forbid I say anything more than just "thank you"... and I hate the "you show your appreciation by paying your bill" line!

I also don't understand why it upsets me so much. If they don't need to hear my gratitude than the "need" must be mine... but I don't get it.

Thanks for responding. This one hit me especially hard. It happened yesterday and I slept last night with the help of meds but was in bed crying all day. Again, just don't get either side of it.