Hello Shoreditch,

Welcome to pc. First up please don't hate yourself. There are a number of people here at pc who understand what is happening with you as they suffer the same pain.

It's not something they want or that you want, but because the actual cause or reason is hidden under the surface you don't know what you are looking for so that you can fix it; this is why you need a therapist to help you to work it out and heal it.

You are doing your best to handle it and that is commendable, I've seen people who don't even attempt to rein themselves in at all so don't be so harsh on yourself. Here you'll recieve support and friendship that will help you to stay stable in your attempts to get strong and work out what is happening to you.

Please feel free to message me if you need some private support or there are things you feel you can't mention in the public forum,

Rhiannon