>>Im 20 and would you believe a cheerleader, yet i find it so hard to even like myself.

Try to keep in mind that this is one of the classic symptoms of depression. It doesn't matter what good or bad we have going for us, the depression makes us focus on the bad and unable to see the good, and often even makes the good feel like something bad.

It is very hard to deal with, but remind yourself as often as you can that you are good. That is the truth, and it is just the darkness of the depression that makes you unable to see the truth.

The negative thoughts are there, and will be there until you can find your way through the depression, but hold in your heart that the negative thoughts, althouth they feel very real, are a part of the illness and don't have anything to do with reality.

Good luck