Hello rainwater,

Welcome to pc. Of everything you have written this stands out the most to me.

Your fiance is a different person altogether than you. bipolar does hamper and hinder yes, but when under control the symptoms do ease some.

Finding inner peace is one of the major ways to combat bipolar and when you do achieve it it is something that really makes a huge difference.

I wish you all the best, and hoping that you are able to settle soon and just love yourself.