Hi dlifer,

Welcome to PsychCentral.

Sounds like you're going through a lot at the moment. But I really do recommend trying to approach SOMEONE you know for emotional support to get through this - even if you don't want them to see you how you are right now, it's better than them not really knowing what's up with you and being unable to help.

I'm not sure about specific services, partly because they differ according to area and I'm from Canada so I doubt I'd be of much help. Consider going to an ER and waiting for support and to ask for information. Look into drop-in centres for mental health support or community support centres. They'd be the best resources for you. The ER would be the best place for meds immediately and for referral to other doctors and/or counsellors that would work on a sliding scale fee.