I am just in a really awkward place right now.
It starts in the morning - I'm always tired by the time my alarm goes off. I wake up with adrenalin cursing through me and my heart racing - sever anxiety.
I kind of switch off and drive to work as a zombie. I get to work and suddenly feel VERY lonely. I just cannot seem to feel that void with anything. I spend 80% of my day on PC and hardly do any work. I feel a bit better once I leave, but then usually have to sepnd another hour or 2 helping my boyfriend out with paper work for his business. Then it's home to cook dinner, at which stage I'm usually quite irritable, probably because I'm getting tired. Then I go to bed. Last night i nearly burst into tears because I felt so empty and lonely and the depression was lapping at my heals. I had to beg my boyfriend to understand and hold me.

I can feel the depression is coming back. I'm also relying more on Klonopin than I have in the last while. Partially to help with the anxiety, but also to just numb my emotions.
I cannot put my finger on what it is I'm experiencing, but it's sad and lonely. Just looking for some support.