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Originally Posted by jiakhan
rhainnon...i was unable to move on without doing this. i should have had the courage to contact with my real id in the very beginning...and i should have told him that i admire him,instead i told him that i loved him. that was a mistake. if i'd told him a bit differently may be he would have considered being friends with me is ok. but i messed up big time! he said to me repeatedly that i should have the guts to tell him my name if i like him. i didnt tell him straight away...but i gave him so many hints and he got me. he knew that it was me all along.
now,by telling him it was me i wanted to restore my personal dignity....i thought why should i hide myself. even if im not good enough for him why should i hide myself. why not tell him straight away that hey it was me and im sorry. lets see what happens. atleast my consciounce is clear now. by the way,i havnt told him all about the fake ids,and he hasnt asked either. i have just told him that it was me who contacted him several months ago.  |
I should have used the emoticons again. There was nothing but gentle concern in that post dear jaikhan. My concern is for the way you are treated and the pain it causes you. You are worth so much more and deserve so much better.
You have done really well over the time, and I think I pointed that out to you at one stage hon. You deserve much better than the way this guy has treated you, and the one thing that keeps hurting me is feeling your intense pain and worry when he hurts you again without even thinking twice about it.
I really only have genuine care and concern for you dear jaikhan. You're such a special person who has never a bad word about or for anyone and that is such a very special trait that so few people have.
Sending you lots of hugs
and an apology if what I wrote came out wrong,
Rhiannon