People through history have said the world is going to end! at different times. Let's try not to worry about 2012. Don't say you suck because you haven't got scholarships or grants? Scholarships have alot of requirements and if you are starting out it might be hard to go that route. With grant's it should be based on financial need. It sounds like you are struggling with money, so I dont know why they wouldnt give you a break there. But dont pressure yourself to make a decision about school. You have a right to change your mind. I say dont worry about the world. The world is nuts in my opinion! I don't watch the news much because it just depresses me and makes me feel liek we are in the book of Revelation. Just concentrate on yourself and what you wish to achieve and try not to get too upset with things like deadlines. These processes can be a pain in the butt. Maybe that is why they are called DEADlines.
I wish you all the best concarne