Also, if you are unable to continue on the computer, look for free support groups in your area for depression and other similar illnesses.

As you will here on this forum, at support groups you will find support from people who completely understand your fears and feelings. Most of us, if not all of us, have had the same fears and reservations and concern that there is no solution to this. Just having contact with people who understand and have been there is a valuable resource toward recovery.