Along the same lines of the supportive words above. The reality is you are you and we are we but it may help you as you hear how we have dealt with the same quandary you present.

For me I accept my illness as a part of who I am. It does not define me though. I do however have to fight the unnatural and illogical direction it points me too.

As a young man I was an outstanding athlete who had a brief flirt with chasing a dream of professional baseball. I then became a musician and that has brought many good things. I also managed to start a successful Janitorial Business. I have been married twice and the 2nd time has been great and I have 2 daughters who are doing very well.

I have also failed miserably at all of these things over and over and had a period of severe self destruction and suicidal leanings.

For me and let me stress for me, it was comforting to find out what I believe is the purpose of life for everyone and everything. Which in turn has helped me, emphasis on I am speaking for me, be firmly and unequivocally convinced that life as we know it was not intended to be like this and all will one day be corrected by our creator.

Now while many will scoff or others will interpret this as some emotional religious mumbo jumbo so be it. Just know that I am not talking about some inner blind faith or some church babble. It is based on my own personal research and my relentless search for the answer to the very question that you presented. That is again the answer for me.

This is what has worked with me. No human was meant to live like this nor with any trouble known to man. And knowing it will end is enough for me to accept the present reality of dealing with it.