Thanks for the PM, LMo. ((((( LMo )))))

I'm not intentionally trying to make excuses. Believe it or not, I do still have a heart and a conscience (sp?) and part of that is me not wanting my mom to suffer again. But you did make a good point, WI. Would be less expensive in the long run to get into treatment rather than die from my addiction.

Still not sure I'll check myself into an inpatient clinic, but if I don't, I will start going back to NA meetings daily and I'll start getting more into my NA lit again.

Today is Tuesday... I haven't used since Sunday. well, I took three hits yesterday from my pipe but that's pretty much nothing compared to what I usually do. Body is aching like hell.