Today I have my appointment with a pdoc for a second opinion (requested by my own pdoc). It was supposed to be not until next Monday, but I'm not doing well at all right now and my therapist managed to get me in to see the pdoc a few days early.

I'm nervous of course. I'm feeling so hopeless right now and I feel like this is my last chance. If this guy can't help me, I'm a lost cause.

Sorry, just in a really bad place right now.