I know how it feels to hate yourself, but recently after getting on the correct meds after almost a year of trying different meds, I'm feeling better and liking myself again. Liking one's self is the key to having good & positive relations w/ all the others who surround us. Please go to a thearpist and your general doctor who can help you. Let them know of your feelings & depression. There are medicines that can help you and there are people who do love you too!