Not a good day. No particular reason. Couldn't connect with anything or anyone, and I felt like I was trapped on the outside of everything, looking in. Slow to react, unable to concentrate, anxious and frustrated over nothing ... On top of that it's pouring rain and I forgot my umbrella. This was just one of those days that I should have stayed in bed. Safe and warm and away from everything and everyone.

I'll make a therapy appointment in the morning, I guess. The annoying thing is it usually takes a few days to a week to get in, and if I'm feeling better by the time I see her, it's completely useless. I'm sitting in the library right now. Was going to work but I can't concentrate. I feel ready to explode. Could go home but the walk in the rain makes me want to cry just thinking about, so I'm stuck here, doing nothing, wishing I was someplace else. Sorry to whine.