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I received a wonderful PM from a very special someone on dream interpretation.

I found some of the interpretations to be pretty accurate. There was something that said, I may have unresolved anger issues with my Uncle and/or Aunt. I think this is true. Not anger in the sense of "I hate you" anger. More along the lines of, "why didnt you take this more seriously" type anger. I hope that makes sense.

In the months since his death have been pretty up and down for me. For the most part I try to avoid thinking about the circumstances surrounding his death and therefore I pretty much avoid thinking about him at all. It is very painful. Maybe, my subconcious knows that I am now ready to deal with some of the feelings I am and have been having about him all these months.

I am angry that after his initial diagnosis he was referred to a specialist who happened to be on vacation for 2 weeks. My Aunt and Uncle chose to wait those 2 weeks to see this particular DR. I am angry that they waited. WHY would they wait?. WHy did they not treat this with the utmost importance? I am angry with them and the initial DR that DX'd him. WHY didnt that DR take it upon himself to make them understand that it was imparative that he see someone right away.
Even after he saw this DR, they were were so slow in his care.

I DO NOT understand, how someone can be DX'd with cancer and die 43 days later. I DO NOT understand.