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Nov 18, 2010, 06:53 PM
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Member Since: Dec 2008
Location: Canada
Posts: 212
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Hey everyone, thankyou for all your support, it's really been great to know that people are there for me like all of you are.
Well, I'm not sure if my parents have contacted a doctor but I've been able to control the voice in public so I don't randomly scream at myself. But now it's telling me to do more stuff, not only to me but to others. All I want to do it hit things. I'm not the hitting type but when I hear the voice I just want to trash things.
I've been writing every once and a while about how I've been dealing. Just throughout the day. It feels better after I get it out of my system.
Last night was the first night sleeping alone. Since my little scare my sister has been sleeping with me, although it didn't stop my midnight wake-ups it's helped me feel safer. But last night was tough, I couldn't even turn off my light, although I was super tired I couldn't turn it off. When I'd dose off I'd quickly wake up. I was just getting really paranoid, I don't even know what I saw but I did. Just terrifying.  then my mom came and turned it off and told me to go to bed. It's just hard that she has no sympathy for me at all.
After she turned my light off I was just too scared to reach over and turn it back on.
I really appreciate you all for listening to me and being there for me.
Thanks for all the support guys. 
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