(((((((((((((( cutbuddie ))))))))))))))
I can only imagine how scary it is for you right now and not really knowing where to turn or what to do. Please know that you are far from crazy hon. Illnesses come in all shapes and sizes and it's a matter of going to the right professional (maybe even more than one) to help you find your way through this maze. I know that sometimes you may think that professionals don't help, many people feel that way, but the only way for you to find out what is going on is to go and be evaluated.
If the voice gets too much for you to take and you are really afraid of doing the things the voice tells you to do, you can go to the emergency room in your area and they will call in a mental health professional to talk with you and do an evaluation to see where you are. Once that is done, they will let you and your parents know how best to access the help you need and deserve.
There are a number of different illnesses/disorders that could cause what is going on with you. Of course, no one here can diagnose you, nor should we try. We can only support you and help you to move in the best direction for you. Please don't worry about what the doctors or therapists think, they are not there to judge you, only to help you.
I know it can be a big and scary step to take to search out help. Please know that you have all our support and we're here to listen as well. Take good care of yourself okay?

sabby