BNLsMOM, yeah. In reading your posts here, can certainly relate. I've always had a hard time knowing at what point they become truly problematic. "They" say oh, when thoughts move to.... da ta da ta da" (if I say plans and acquisitions, is that crossing a line???), it is problematic. But by the time my mind got there, it all seemed so damned logical, and therefore *not* problematic to my way of thinking! Your last post just really clinched having to respond. I found at my very most... what to call it? (most out of touch with reality/reason?)... times... comfort, relief in my thoughts and actions. Whatever it was, it did not seem negative at all to me. Now, being in a much better place (hard right now, but compared to then?! ) I can see that I was at a very dangerous place.

Long and short of that is, yes, that should worry you, BNLsMOM. Please take care and help while it still does worry you. Because when it doesn't? Yeah, let's not even go there.

Much much