I'll be talking about it and asking for help tomorrow. Like you said, Innerzone, I am still in a place where I know that having these thoughts comfort me is bordering on dangerous. I have been in this place before, but I am afraid that I might be a little "braver" (for lack of a better word) because I crossed the line from thinking about si a few weeks ago and actually did minor damage to my arm. I went into the hospital after that for nine days.