Are you out of your second marriage? I'm still married and have PTSD so its hard to recover from something when I continue to be exposed to it.
Traumatic from the past, and continuing traumas in the present. If you are out you can heal. It's certainly important for you to find a T that has trauma experience, maybe there is a trauma group that meets nearby. But also, no all therapist's are skilled at dealing with domestic
violence. We bring to them a myriad of problems that not only include
trauma. Self esteem issues usually, Your anxiety, depression,nightmares
all sound like you may have PTSD. I know it's hard, but try to find some
professional help. I hate taking meds but they may help you.