Aww, zoo....such hard stuff. I hope you decide to send the email, and I hope your T helps give you what you need....

I know it feels scary, but putting it out there, confronting it and addressing it can help you get to a better place with it all.

As my T has said to me many times, "holding back feelings, suppressing it, ignoring it, etc. - is not working for you"....

((( HUGS )))