I just found out a very close friend ODed today. He is unconscious and on life support right now. This was not a suicide attempt but a friend dealing with substance abuse. They discovered he also has severe pneumonia. His Mother told a friend of mine that he might not make it. I wish I were able to be at the hospital by his side right now. I love him. He has always been an amazing and caring friend to me. An incredibly talented musician and one of the most original person I have ever known. I can't imagine him no longer in my life or in this world. I don't even want to think about the overwhelming pain that will overcome me if he dies. Lord help him come through this. Let this be the wake up call for him to get better and not the end of his life. Give me the strength to cope with this without completely falling apart. Please don't let him die. I am completely distraught right now. If I could afford a cab I'd be there right now. I am so scared.