thanks everyone. It's been a real misison to get hold of her, even via phone. And she seems a lot less willing to prx me meds over the phone, or consent to me upping meds. I also thought 200mg was where I was meant to be at on Lamictin.
She's really great, listens and is sympathetic when I'm in her rooms, but not so over the phone. I guess she wants to be able to talk and get the full picture

I really want to start riding my horse more, which will be my exercise and make me feel better.

Today has started off a bit better, as I'm getting stuck into work.
Most days, I spend most of my day on PC, and think that some posts may subconsciously trigger me. So I need to be more cautious. And I just cannot get enough sleep - 8 hours is still not cutting it.

I really appreciate all your support - especially with my T being away for 3 weeks, and my support system being very limited; I really rely a LOT on PC