I quit drink almost 8yrs ago....I don't know if I'm an addict or not I just know I'd change and suffer intense negative feelings when drinking and would OD a lot seriously...I still romance the drink and what I fantasised it could do for me, but it went further then I wanted and began to attack me...I still struggle with feelings but I know I don't just want a drink, I'd want a drunk.

strange today I mentioned to T how my fear of loosing people connects with mydrinking, I'd cling to that drink like it was my last chance of love and try and swallow it down as fast as I could. Dealing with the feelings of loss tie in with me dealing with the loss of?abilty to abuse alcohol.