I am having a really strong aversion to mindfulness right now. I thought perhaps I could mindfully drink my coffee each morning but I find myself doing mental backflips to avoid it. As I try to stay mindful even of that response, anxiety goes through the roof, and I miss the whole point. I wonder if there is a different activity to stay mindful of. I've always had major issues with this in the past, total huge fear responses to mindfulness activities. The harder I try, the more it escalates. Ughh.