I'm actually reluctant to post about this again. The old flame, grade school/high school/college and beyond sweetheart visited here again to finish the labor mediation work he does as an attorney. He's in Boston; I'm here in WV, and such a visit is rare, only three times now in 30 years.
I was actually dreading this visit from him, because after the last visit, I got all stirred up emotionally, and had to work on myself to get back to earth. We visited a museum together on Sunday afternoon, and then had dinner together Monday evening after his hearing. He came back over to my house for awhile after last night's dinner, and we had a frank discussion about our mutual attraction and love for each other, but I made it clear that I respect and honor his married status and that I intended to behave toward him as if his wife were present. At some point he began to cry! He shed tears for most of an hour while we talked. I can honestly say I've never had a man express such desire for me, much less shed tears. It's interesting, though, that I remained detached thru it all. I know his emotions were genuine, and not some act to seduce me, but I told him I had already had a lot of heartache in my life, as well as anxiety over men, and didn't want that to result from our contact, to which he agreed.
I have to say here that I am proud and a bit amazed at how well I controlled myself, and it wasn't even an effort on my part.
Today, I sent him a warm email reflecting our visit together, to which I received an impersonal response of only a couple of sentences, not acknowledging anything I had said in my message. Hmmm...I'm glad I acted in emotional self-preservation.
What do y'all think?
Seeker Patty