Oh I had such a bad day in therapy. Just the pits. So it all started with after seeing my t with the other client after one of my recent sessions. (The whole pee analogy from last post of mine.) The next time he asked if I felt more connected at the end of the session. I said yes just because it sounded like the right thing to say. Soooo

Today we were doing kind of like a chain analysis on something I am working on and it was NOT going well. It was like we were both trying to shout our opposite points of view to eachother. He didn't get what I was trying to say at all and when I told him that he said, "Well that is possible and it is also possible that you are not willing to hear me either." I WAS willing to hear him but wanted us to find the middle path.

So anyway he bullheaded his way throught the entire session and then at the 10 til mark said, "Well, this doesn't seem like a very good place to end at." No *****! But do you think he would step back for one minute before that? By this point I had 'HAD IT' with him.

I looked up with fire in my eyes and said, "Well that is the beauty of not caring about a connection with you because I DON"T CARE if we end this way or not!" T said, "Ok well it is time to end. Have a good weekend." I didn't even reply.

This is what I have noticed. He has his dumb DBT consultation group on Thursdays and they are always pulling him away from me. (Lord only knows what they say about me.) I can always tell after their meetings because he definately pulls away and it isn't even in a gentle manner.

AAAAHHHHGGG!! For today I HATE THERAPY!!!!