Don't know what to say but felt like i needed to say something. Sorry you are going through this. I have been in position when i was unable to pay rent, was barely buying food and things were being shut off. Its a horrible feeling and you don't want to ask people for help. Can you look into social services in your area. Look in phone book or online for any social services programs that can be of help to you right now. My prayers are with you and your family.