Thanks everyone for the suggestions and encouraging words. It means more to me than you all really know. (((((((((( everyone ))))))))))

I finally went today and seen my godaughter and godson. First time I've seen him since he was born almost 2 months ago. First time I've seen Kenzie in over two weeks. Seeing them, holding them, playing with them, it all made me think really hard. They mean the world to me, they are like my own. I want to be able to watch them grow up and have families of their own. I can't do that being out on the street trying to find my next fix.

Now I truely realize why they say take this recovery business one day at a time. I stayed clean today, although the withdrawals have been hell. Hoping I can stay clean tomorrow as well, but I can't let myself think too far ahead because it scares the hell out of me to think of staying clean the rest of my life. It's too much for me to take in at one time. So one day at a time it shall be.