I feel so depressed. I found myself looking up easy ways to kill myself today. I feel guilty for wishing myself dead. I have a beautiful son and it would be a wicked selfish thing to do. However I can't stop myself from wishing he was older so I could just do it and he would be ok.

I am struggling at work. I have an extremely stressful and responsible job. My job is made more difficult by a woman who consistantly bullies me. I feel like throwing in the towel, but I do love my work. I feel utterly miserable.