Oh Granite this made me cry!

I have tried three times now to post a complete response to this but my computer keeps acting up and it gets deleted before I get to finish it.

I am sorry that I come across like my therapy is like having a root canal without lidocaine. Sometimes I wish that was the treatment. Physical pain hurts me a lot less than emotional pain.

I do know that my relationship with my therapist is a difficult one at best for me to navigate. If my own parents didn't care how can t right? I know that therapy has helped me end the long cycle of serious abuse in my family and I am proud that I had the courage to be the one to do it.

I am going to post this and then continue on so I don't lose it again.