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I have to say that last week I felt soooo connected and cared for during my session. I was trying to sort out my difficult childhood and when I left it was like I was absolutely raw with pain. I went to the restroom to dry my eyes and went to get in my car (which was right in front of t's office window.) I saw him gleefully interacting with another client like I was just forgotten. It was one of those moments where it was probably a much bigger deal in my head but it just made all those feelings of being cared for just go away. It hurt really bad. When I get hurt I turn it into anger and detatchment because I guess it just feels safer for me.

When I found out about PC I felt that this would be a place where people would understand. I guess I am finding out that my experience is pretty different than others who are in therapy. I don't mean to drag anyone down. I apologize for that. I will try to keep my posts more on the positive side. It is just for me the therapy helps me but the relationship can hurt oh so bad.