I agree that you should definitely concentrate on the good choices you've made and arrangements you made. However, I also think that you may need to contact your doc and see if a med adjustment is needed. I know its hard when your up, its better than any drug out there, but the down is as bad as the up is good. I know that others count on me so it is important to maintain a healthy state and unfortunately that means giving up some of the highs. I have also recently realized that I couldn't maintain a healthy state without my docs, so I have begun keeping them in a much smaller loop. It may be a consideration for you to think about. This helped for me because with distractions I often found myself to weak to motivate myself to begin them. Although, if they work for you, by all means do them. I hope you find something from this you can use.