It's What some of us here call Relaps. It happens to all of us.... sometimes years inbetween. I do believe that it stems down to all the abuse that you recieved as a child. You do need better coping skills and they need to become automatic to you. One that could help is a form of Psychology, It's called Energy Psychology. It can help with abuse. One way to do it for yourself with out professionals (even though I do not recomend it, because it can be very harmful to you if done in the wrong mannor, but there are very few professionals that can help with it.) It's called Tapping. Or Emotional Freedome Techneiche. I have used it on a few of my traumas and found it helpfull.

More coping skills can be found at the top of this forums home page. And more suggestions should fallow after this one. But use your strenghts to over come this. It can be done. and you can do this.