Hi PurpleChick ~ I PRAY you don't go thru with it. It is such a waste of a beautiful life. Remember: It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem ! ANY problem can be solved if we work at it. The sames goes for our mental problems. And thinking of suicide IS a mental problem. I've had occasional thoughts of it too, but I would NEVER do it. I've thought of it because I'm in constant, never-ending pain -- and i have been for 25 years. I'm so tired of being in severe pain -- that even death sounds good. But I couldn't do it because it would hurt my family.

You see, when we do something like that, we affect others terribly!! Our friends and our families are devastated -- and they carry that around for years. That's not fair to put them thru that. God gave us life and we're obligated to take care of that gift. If we have problems, then we must do something about it. I know you ARE doing something - sometimes it just takes awhile to do it.

Your therapist wasn't judging you. She wasn't making light of it. She knows it's a serious issue. She just used a poor choice of words. I know she didn't mean to make it sound like that. Therapists are people too - sometimes they stick their foot in their mouth. LOL Just forget that, and move on. She cares about you - there's no doubt about it.

God bless you dearheart - and try to figure out why you think of killing yourself. We want you HERE. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee