((((Ncal)))) how frightening for you! I had a period of time where I lost my mind around the beginning of August last month.. it had a clear trigger so I knew what caused it, but it is ALWAYS scary to find yourself losing control. It may very well have something to do with the drugs, I suspect. I'm glad you're planning to be honest with your T about that because she may be able to help you do the right thing for your own health. You say you just started smoking pot a couple weeks ago? Does the timing of that coincide with the beginning of this episode?