Your right about doing your own thing now an then , so long as you dont look antisocial. Lots of simple things a depressive does would deem weird to the normals as i call them. But back to the holiday theme, i remember traveling by car to a place in england , It was about 300 miles an i drove the car so it was cool. There was only me an the wife , an the apartment was in a cliff face looking out to sea with a balcony to watch the waves crash in. The first day was fine , the next day we were in a bar an a feeling i know well overwelmed me.All i had for the week was 6mg of ativan , an i new i would need 2mg to be able to drive home.i had to spend a week in terror of breaking down. I had to self med with alchol in short bursts to releave a pressure biuld up. Now there was no trigger to this relaspse other than being away from my safe place ie home. But i stuck it out , it didnt get better but it was as much for the wife than me. i made it home just . What happened then is a blur.