When I cut I have this problem too. It's not deep enough, it's not bad enough. Even when people see the cuts and look away in horror because it seriously looks like it went through a meat grinder, even THEN do I feel like it wasn't good enough.

Some where we are are taught to feel this way in life. SOme person taught us we were not good enough> Essentially that is why we cut. The minute we see that we do not have to be self destructive to get the pain out, the minute we stop cutting and stop being victims and live life free from the negativity. It isn't easy to change our thoughts but if we practice stopping mechanisms. Once we get the "bad" thought processed we catch it and instead tell ourselves the opposite. Pretty soon this becomes natural. Because why aren't we good people? Why? Because someone made us feel that way. There is no reason why we cant love ourselves as much as we hate ourselves. We are the only ones suffering from it. We are no different than any other joe shmo who can do it. We just have to reprogram our thoughts. No for real. Call me crazy but we are a by product of our thoughts. That why they tell you growing up that attitude matters. Be strong you don't have to cut anymore. We can show our pain in our success. Being so pissed off at our families, past lovers or abusers, or even ourselves.....being so pissed we overcome it, we rise above it. I am working on this myself. It only makes sense. If I keep cutting myself and depriving myself I am only hurting me i am not showing anyone anything. Now to make it on my own and make my dreams happen, now there is payback...there is my blood on my flesh........