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Old Nov 20, 2010, 06:44 PM
Jenn1fer82 Jenn1fer82 is offline
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I am a jealous gf not because of other girls but because my bf spends so much of this time on his computer playing pc games. Battlefield, Call of Duty, Heroes of newerth, and league of legends and it use to be World of Warcraft until it got too expensive for him. We've fought like cats and dogs, I've cried, ran back home to my parents and at my lowest point I took his keyboard and broke it into pieces. That wasn't my proudest moment, very much ashamed of it.

He tells me I knew of his hobbies so I shouldn't complain but I tell him I respect his hobby but it doesn't mean I should be ignored and last on his list because he wants to spend another hour on the computer. I've felt so guilty for feeling so much resentment towards his hobbies that I've found myself buying things for his hobbies such has pc upgrades. I'm sick in the head right! I support something that has made me feel so bad about myself because I find myself asking: what is it about me that he doesn't want to spend time with me.

He makes comment that we dont have as much sex anymore but how can I be in the mood when I've been ignored all day and the only time he wants to give me attention is after midnight when he finally peels himself out of his computer chair to come to bed. He said that I go to bed too early so that affects when we have sex. I told him he can spend time with me and if its before 1030pm we can have sex. he said its too early for him to come to bed because during that time is when all of his friends gathers up and begin to play. How I take that is, he would rather spend that time playing games instead of wanting to spend time with me and have sex. That really makes me feel bad as a woman. Am I not sexy enough anymore that I can't compete with a computer game? He's so much more interested in the games instead of me.

I dont like it that it takes me to cry and yell about him getting out of hand again with his games that he takes a short break and then find time to spend time with me but slowly enough he goes through his withdraws and goes back to his gaming ways. He doesn't know how to balance his time. I say you can having his games and me too but for him its either games or me. I dont know what more I can do and say. We've yelled about it, we've emailed about it, we've been civil and talked about it and it always goes back to him spending day and night with his computer. It is the last thing he thinks about before bed, the first thing on his mind and when he comes home from work he runs to that computer. I stand by and watch as I'm yelling for his attention. He can't hear me because he has his gaming headset on, which I had bought him.