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Old Nov 20, 2010, 06:51 PM
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I didn't say much...I mean, at first I did, when I said my emotion urge was to leave. I talked about the fact that I've had a stressful and emotional week, and I'm already emotionally vulnerable, and I couldn't deal with this weird dynamic between M and I.

I talked about my experience of how the relationship ended, and a little bit about what I wanted to get out of today's conversation in group.

But once she started talking, she kept going until the time was up. She started out saying that there was nothing going on and that she didn't know what I wanted to talk about. She sure had a lot to say, though.

Group-T did check in with me a couple of times, as I sat there with my hands shaking and trying not to cry. When I left I sat in my car for a few minutes, trying to get back into the moment and to not be totally triggered by her talking about my assault in that environment and in those terms: graphic, upsetting, unsettling, horrible...those are just a few of the words that I remember her using.

How did she think that was supposed to make me feel? How did she think it felt to have those things happen to me, when even hearing about it is too much for HER?

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